They say that most people have trouble remembering all seven names of Snow White’s Dwarfs.
Here I go:
Doc, Dopey, Sneezy, Happy, Sleepy, Bashful and…….. Grumpy!
OK, I confess, I actually had to google to get them all
But, I must say I can’t believe I had trouble remembering…. Grumpy. I have been very grumpy this last week and a half. I have been tolerable at best. I understand myself when I have one day of grumpy – but when I carry it on for a week or more – I know there is an underlying problem.
Grumpy over a week’s time is just my PC way to say that I am angry. I am currently reading Gary Chapman’s book “Anger: handling a powerful emotion in a healthy way.” Talk about a slow read….. It is well written – just a lot of soul work on the way through.
Anyway, Chapman talks about two types of anger: Definitive or Distorted. Definitive is when a wrong has actually occurred. Distorted anger is when a perceived wrong has occurred.
Can I just say that my ‘grumpiness’ started with Definitive and quickly spread to Distorted. And now I have wasted my time and burdened my relationships with my whining, little girl behavior (Jan Silvious’ book: “Big Girls Don’t Whine.”)
What has really happened is this: I got drained emotionally this past month. Lots of big things happening in my life! But the sad part is I turned to the people in my life to sustain me – Not God!
So, today, I turn a corner. A corner that leads straight to God’s lap, his ear, his heart and I decide to act like a big girl. I am deciding to let God meet me where I am at; angry, tired, disappointed, confused…. Ok, I realize you are not my personal counselors! But I do appreciate you being my confessional!
Maybe there is something you need to take directly to God – don’t pass ‘Go’ or collect $200 – Just go straight to …. Bad analogy –
Just Go straight to God!
© Cheryl Meakins