Are you gaining momentum? My headaches from caffeine withdrawal have ceased. I can feel my energy being very constant throughout the day. But I have to be honest, I was a bit grumbly about not eating what I wanted. Yes, sometime today I thought; “Does it really matter what I eat and why would God really need me to not eat certain foods?” Yes, there was a bit of sas in that attitude! Wow, I am a bit gutsy to cop an attitude with God! I am glad he is my father and understands me J
Why is the food so important? Because; I had become spoiled.
A flash back to scripture, provided by God, helped me put it in perspective. (Exodus 5-15)The Israelites had been slaves in Egypt for 400 years. They were treated with disdain, their babies murdered, their men beaten, and they cried out to God. God sent a deliverer, Moses, who proclaimed God’s release. God ushered in plague after plague until Pharaoh let God’s people go. Then as they left, some of the Egyptians came with them, and those that stayed gave them gold and animals to get them out of their country. They left Egypt as an incredibly wealthy nation. But Pharaoh changed his mind, he pursued them with an army. Then God parted the Red Sea for them to cross into safety and drowned Pharaoh and his army. Now, after all this the Israelites worshipped God and lived happily ever after in the land that God had promised to them. Not really.
They came to the wilderness and began to complain that God had brought them out there to die (Exodus 16.) (Really?, then he went to a lot of trouble to save them, to then kill them) So God sent manna from heaven every morning and quail every night. Guess what, they grumbled. Miraculous provision wasn’t enough.
So why isn’t all the whole grains and fruits and vegetables of every kind and pure water not enough for me? Because I had come to a spoiled place that even the miraculous provision of year round fruits and vegetables was not enough. Like the Israelites that had traveled for 2 months couldn’t remember all the miracles of their release… Like a spoiled child I was throwing a temper tantrum!
Though I am denying myself – it is from what I want – not what I need. In humility I realized that these precious foods and pure water; without disease or illnesses, is a modern day miracle. What I have been given during this fast is truly enough!
I wonder what other areas of my life I am spoiled? What other aspects do I not see God’s miraculous provision for me. What more could I be grateful for?
Tomorrow, I will enter his gates with Thanksgiving and into his courts with praise! (Psalm 100:4)